I personaly have a lot of friends. In high school I always hang out with different people and they all describe me as an charismatic person. Wich is very weird if you ask me because introverts are always described as loners,shy people and 'weird ones' that are always in their head. So as I said I do hang out with my friends and I love making jokes and being the center of attention if you could call it that. But after those couple of hours in school I start feeling empty and like I need to 'recharge' myself. At the beginning I felt bad for telling people that I don't want to hang out after school or that I don't want to go to the party because I felt like I was letting them down in a way?? But now I know that that is just who I am. I like being alone in my room listening to music,watching movies,looking at fashion blogs,going shopping alone and spending time on tumblr. It makes me feel comfortable and I don't feel tired nor bored doing it.
But being an introvert is not always that bad..
Being and introvert made my love for fashion! That is weird right? Well I was never a fashion obsessed person untill now (and when I was 5-7 yrs. old lol). During the summer while my friends were having fun outside I was in my home and that is when I came across a fashion blog that I love till this day. So I decided to make my own tumblr at first,then my polyvore and now my blog! And I couldn't be happier,like I finally found myself.
Not to mention that A LOT of famous people are also introverts. I think that there is just something about being an introvert that makes you want to succsee in life more. I don't know that might be weird but from my POV introverts spend more time doing stuff that they want (career wise) because they are always in their head and they overthink all the time while extroverts enjoy their freedom.
Just to mention, being an extrovert is also amazing and in todays society you guys(extroverts) are way more accepted than us.
A while ago I took this introvert test that I found on one of the blogs here on blogger and here are my results:
Here is the link to the test:
I still have days when I wish I was more outgoing,more excited about going out with my friends and living life outside of my head. I am still young,I am a teen. Saying that I completely accepted myself would be a lie,not to anyone else,but to myself.My life just started and I have a big journey ahead of me.Sometimes I think..will I drive myself crazy with all these constant thoughts in my head? How is it possible for a 17 year-old to feel so much pressure from things that she has never experienced .Can I ever 'go with the flow' and just enjoy the moment that I am living in or do I always have to think about the past,future and present at the same time? And will I ever take a break from it?
But now I realize that I can't take a break from being myself.For the past couple of months I have been dealing with depression.It took me a lot of strenght and wil to realize that it IS OKAY to be different.,it is okay to 'be weird'.
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Not going to the parties,shopping and hanging out with my friends does not make me weird or a loner. It just makes me different,because I am an introvert.
And rememmber:
